Stolen moments

STOLEN MOMENTS

In high school, I used to run with a popular group of teens. One of our friends and his Dad were on a political campaign to keep Dayton from annexing Huber Heights  and so we started stealing Dayton Ohio metal signs and poles and blinking yellow construction barrels and lights.   We did it in the dark of night and I felt like it was okay because my friends Dad approved so I wrongly programmed my brain that there is righteous stealing.  One thing led to another and before you know it, we were breaking into a classroom and we stole the answer key to a math test. I remember my heart beating when the teacher caught me in her room and I claimed it was unlocked when actually we crawled in through the window.  She was so disappointed in me and it pierced my heart as I was disappointed in myself too.  I lied to her and that hurt too.

By college, I was running with some old buddies and some new and we were stealing keys from teachers’ desks and running through the buildings at night taking things.   I know now there was no real moral difference in whether the item you steal is big or small but that was my moral code I lived by.  I stole letterhead from the Dean’s Office so I could write official looking letters to friends to make them go to an appointment that didn’t exist because it was hilarious LOL and I took other things. We even broke into an observatory to check out the glory of the galaxies around us and broke onto a roof of a 32 story building walking on the edge of death staring at the small lighted cars of Cincinnati below us.

A guy I knew was a bit of a wild scientist used to take much more valuable things.  He took a square wave generator from a lab and then he took a 12 yr old girls’ skull from an anthropology lab.   For much of my life, stealing was one of those subtle sins in my life.  I took the small trinkets from work or electrical supplies or compressed air fittings etc.  It seemed inconsequential but in God’s eye, some day I will have to give an account. 

SALT & LIGHT

He eventually stole my heart because of the salt and light of others  and now I steal no more.  Herb was a friend that we all knew was a Christian but he liked hanging with us and he didn’t hassle us much and took us fairly unconditionally so we liked having him around.  Soon he was taking some things too on our adventures like classroom signs to hang in his dorm.   In one of his weak moments, he came down on my friend about stealing valuable things and in classic agnostic response, I shot back at the Christians’ juggler vein, calling him out as a hypocrite as I said ‘your signs are the same as my friends expensive lab equipment’.   I really didn’t believe that at the time because I followed Herb’s code of small things.   We know Jesus despised the religious leaders and ‘hypocrite’ was His term for them so that was good enough for me to lay into him with to deflect the light he was shining on my sin.

 Well what transpired next was salt and light to my dark heart.  Herb didn’t say anything. Instead, he went back at 2 am in the morning and put the signs back up on the walls of the University.   And worse, he wouldn’t even hang out with us anymore.  I was wounded inside but it was exactly what I needed as I knew that Herb did the honorable and right thing.  And I can imagine he apologized to God and pressed the reset button but I didn’t really know how Christians worked then or what it meant but I what I did know was that Herb was no longer the image of a hypocrite in my mind but instead someone that walked the walk.    That day, I imagined this is what Jesus looked like.  He didn’t look like the world but he was separate from the world and he spoke truth not by just what he said but more by what he did.

[Bible, Book of Matthew Chp 5:13-16]  You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.“You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. 15Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.

Lord,  Thank you for people like Herb that let your light shine before men at the cost of mocking and loss of friendship.  They will not know how many people they lead to you by doing these things.  Bless Herb and others like him for their faith to follow You through the narrow gate of life.  Your wingman, Steven


 

 

I knew what I was getting into

When I quit my job to follow God full time, it didn’t take long for the worry and anxiety to set in.  You see, I quit a really good job from a world perspective. I was managing teams of engineers architects and construction for the Joint Strike Fighter F-35 jet facilities in Dallas Ft Worth and the work was steady, fun most of the time, the people were awesome and the pay was good.
But for my last 3 days of cleaning out my office and handing over my duties to others, I went to bed wondering did I do the right thing. But for those 3 days God did something weird to reassure me that I was called and that everything was going to be all right.  When I woke up I was singing a song in my head that I couldn’t quite place.
…everything is in my hands.
It’s going to be alright.
It’s going to be Okay
I searched the internet as I had the tune in my head and some of the words but to no avail.  On the last day of work, I was driving from Kansas City to Lees Summit my home and was having an internal  discussion with God about going to the prayer room but I told Him I had too much to do and was going to head home. Before you knew it, I had apparently gone south on I-71 instead of going east on I-470 like every other day in my life.
It seemed like a pretty good sign that God wanted me in the prayer room right then.  🙂 What happened next has forever changed me to be really in tune to his voice.  I went in to the prayer room (IHOP.org)  and
Misty Edwards was playing the song that HE kept waking me to.
After that time for the whole first track of the internship at IHOP, I felt a lot of peace in the decision and knew that He was with me in this decision.  Even wilder, is that as we had a short break between Track I and II, I started questioning whether I should be in Track II or working or going into the wilderness and within moments of telling my friend Keith I wasn’t sure I should still be here at IHOP, the same song came on in the background and once again, I am all in again because I know I am listening again.
I also just thought about the fact that he did this over a 3 day period, like burying me from the past ways and awakening to the new things HE has for me.  Thank you Lord for speaking to me and choosing me even in my weakness and sin. Your servant, Steven
Song by MISTY EDWARDS – I knew what I was getting into oracle
I knew what I was getting into when called you.
I knew what I was getting into when I said your name, but I said it just the same.
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into.I knew what I was getting into and I still chose you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into when I said your name, but I said it just the same.
I knew what I was getting into.

And I am not shocked by your weakness.
And I am not shocked even by your sin.
And I am not shocked by your brokenness.

I knew what I was getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still chose you.

Cuz only I can see the end from the beginning.
And only I can see where this is going.
And only I can see the end from the beginning.
And I see in you the seeds of love.
And I see in you strength when all you see is your failure and all you feel is ashamed.
I can see deeper than that.
I know you better than that.

I knew what I was getting into when called you.
I knew what I was getting into when I said your name.
I said it just the same.
I knew what getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you.

Your only at the beginning.
You’ve only just begun and I know where you are going
And all you can see in the moment is that your hurting.
And all you can see in the moment is that your aching.

I knew what I was getting into when I called you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you.
I knew what I was getting into when I called you.

Just don’t give up.
And don’t give in.
If you don’t quit. You win, you win.

Just don’t give up.
And don’t give in.
If you don’t quit. You win, you win.

Everything is in my hands.
It’s going to be alright.
Everything is in my hands.
It’s going to be alright.
It’s going to be okay.
Everything is in my hands.
It’s going to be alright.
It’s going to be Okay.
And you don’t have to pretend to be something or someone your not.
Cuz I know you better than that, even better, even better than that.
Listen my Beloved.

I knew what I was getting into when I called you.
I knew what I was getting into when I said your name.
I said it just the same.
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still chose you.

Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/misty_edwards/i_knew_what_i_was_getting_into_spontaneous_oracle.html 

Goodbye just doesn’t say it anymore…

Lord, may I learn to teach my kids your ways,,,

I am reading the letters from the Apostle John to the Churches in the Book of Revelation and it is amazing what is hidden just in the beginning of the beginning of the beginning.  Like a scratch on a scratch of God’s revelation.

Grace and peace to you from him who is, and who was, and who is to come, and from the seven-fold  Spirit before His throne, and from Jesus Christ, who is the faithful witness, the firstborn from the dead, and the ruler of the kings of the earth. [Revelation 1:5-6]

I was reading David Pawson’s book on the same and he discussed greetings in ancient letters.  He stated if you were Hebrew your letters started with “Peace be to you, your neighbors, enemies and God” and if you were Greek your letters started with “grace” which he said literally meant good luck.   And so he said a Christian would start his letters with “Grace and peace to you”

He said also that “goodbye” is short for God be with ye (you).  I had never heard that so I looked it up in the etymology section of english.stackexchange and it said.

From the Old English Dictionary – “A contraction of the phrase God be with you (or ye)”  The substitution of good- for God may have been due to association with such formulas of leave-taking as good day, good night, etc.

In a quote from 1659, we still have “God”: “But mum for that, his strength will scarce supply His Back to the Balcona, so God b’ wy.”

And they said by 1694, we have transitioned to “good“.  Like so many things in our culture, if we are not taught by our forefathers the richness of the language and what is important to us, over time, it gets watered down and God slowly disappears from our walk.  However, I will say that “good” is of God as the bible states all that is good is of God and all that is evil is from the Evil One.

So this is what I am discovering about the Bible in this season is that even a few words of the beginning of a beginning of a beginning to a book are really important and have rich meaning and history.  You could spend a lifetime on any verse if you wanted to just keep meditating on it.

David Pawson said , The world cannot find peace; they are desperate for it, but they cannot have it because the world does not know the God who always is; the world does not know the seven-fold Spirit of God, and does not trust in Jesus, this reliable reigning Saviour”

Lord,

I pray that I will be a good (God like) father to my children and those around me Lord.  I pray that I will raise them up to learn to follow You and lean on you for everything good in their life.   And Lord let me live by the 7 fold Spirit and believe and trust in Yeshua (Jesus).   And Lord when I leave this world and I say Goodbye to those I leave behind, that in my heart know that I am really saying “God be with ye” to my family & friends, so that YOU may be with them
for eternity in His presence.    Love, your servant Steven

Called Chose Faithful

One of the biggest changes in my life this year is the revealing of Jesus to me through the Holy Spirit, through praying and worshipping him, from others and through the Word.

The Book of Revelation in the Bible used to be just one of those books that my  past churches might touch every 10 years or so or never but I no longer see it as just a weird symbolic apocalyptic book but actually for what it is, the “Revelation of Jesus” as revealed by Jesus ( through an angel to John and now to those that are willing to spend time in it and with Him to have it revealed).     It is amazing how much is really in this book and how important its message will be as I believe we are in the beginning of the birth pangs of the end of the age.

Jesus is the sacrificial lamb that died for all of us to be saved.  He is the only one worthy to open the seals on God’s final battle plan.   [From Bible Book of Revelation Chp 17:14 ]: “They will make war against the Lamb, but the Lamb will overcome them because he is Lord of lords and King of kings-and with Him will be His called, chosen and faithful followers.”

That sums up that nations and kings will rise up against Israel and Jesus in the end of the age but that Jesus will come through victorious.   Also, he will reign over all and my best part that with Him, will be His called, chosen and faithful followers.  I pray that God will keep me faithful to follow my calling from God and that I will bold to say “yes, He is coming soon” even when scoffers think we make no sense at all.

[From Bible, Book of Revelation 7:9] “After this I looked and there before me was a great multitude that no one could count, from every nation and tribe, people and languages, standing before the throne and in front of the Lamb. They were wearing white robes and were holding branches in their hands. And they cried out in a loud voice:  Salvation belongs to our God, who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb.”

The angels, elders and living creatures in heaven were praising God and one of the elders asked who are these multitude in white robes and where did they come and He answered that they knew, they were those Christians persecuted here on earth, those coming out of the great tribulation they have washed their robes in the blood of the lamb.   The discussion in the new testament about no more tears is for the saints willing to lay down their lives for Him.  They will be with Him when He comes down and brings heaven down to earth.  

LORD KEEP ME FAITHFUL.  KEEP ME PRAYING FOR MY PERSECUTED BROTHERS & SISTERS IN JESUS. KEEP THE ONE THING THE ONE THING…YOU GOD.  Thank you God.  

Your servant Steven

Restoring Shattered Lives – Exodus Cry

Restoring Shattered Lives–Exodus Cry Abolition Summit Session 6:   Steve’s TOP7 takeaways from listening to Kezia Hatfield speak regarding the women that need restoration from the torture of sexual trafficking.

“If to be feelingly alive to the sufferings of my fellow-creatures is to be a fanatic, I am one of the most incurable fanatics ever permitted to be at large.” —William Wilberforce

Kezia Hatfield is the Director of Restoration for Exodus Cry. She has a MA in Clinical Psychology and is filled with the power of the Holy Spirit to go into the darkest lairs of the earth and works directly with women to help speak life back into them as God heals them.

There was SO much that Kezia shared I can’t really break it into 7 takeaways. I weep in my heart for the broken and I praise God for the men and women that Jesus is raising up to fight this horrific evil.

  1. Forcefully Broken – These girls are dealing with complex trauma.  They lived daily reality of atrocities.  Sins of omission like a mom that didn’t do anything hurt almost the most.  They witness murders of close friends then blamed for them, forced into drug addictions, forced into abortions, tortured, beaten to miscarriages then raped more, ritualized sex and horrific violent sexual acts, forced to beat others than told they are just like the abuser, the perpetrators want them to become sin and to identify with sin.   They are even forced to have split personalities as part of control.
  2. Shattered – They feel guilt, anxious, shame, no sense of will, despair, rage,  addicted, shattered, isolated, lonely, fear, chaos, gaps of disjointed and frozen history, no hope.  They want to be with someone desperately but don’t trust anyone.
  3. Prayer – Craving & connection to this issue started with prayer in college for Kezia and continues to be the anchor that is more important than the earthly training.  “Call upon Me in the day of trouble [and] I will deliver you.” [Psalm 50:15]
  4.  Relationship/CommunityThere needs to be long-term covenant relationships built. You can’t just rescue and leave them. They have false sense of reality and deep fear and need help navigating things we take for granted like grocery stores even.
  5. Stop Light – every time you come to a Stop Light, stop and pray to shutdown the red light district in your city. Imagine if thousands prayed this how God would move
  6. Item 7 – HOPE – Jesus is the only real HOPE for these victims.

“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me, because He has anointed Me to preach good tidings to the poor; he has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison door to those who are bound.” Isaiah 61:1.

Multiply Prayer – Log in to one of the 3 intercessory prayer meetings at ihop.org Prayer Room.  Monday’s 6am, 4pm & 8pm CST

Prayer:  “Lord, Let me weep for what you weep for.  Let me not only care but let me be involved in the restoration of these beautiful daughters of the King of Kings, your precious treasures”  Your servant, Steven

If you want to help contact http://www.exoduscry.com or contact Steven Anzelc at seeklight@ymail.com

Cambodian Sex Slavery

 

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Steve’s Top7 Takeaways regarding Cambodian Sex Slavery – [Exodus Cry Abolition Summit – Session 5] regarding the Cambodia sex slave business where 55,000 women & girls with more than a third under 16 yrs old are trapped, exploited, abused, brutalized with a life without hope.   Don Brewster of  Agape International Missions AIM shared about the hope in Jesus as Christians walk out their faith.

Don Brewster is CEO of Agape International Missions AIM and shared from the heart the atrocities in Cambodia and the hope in Jesus.  Their vision is to see Christ through His church defeat the evil of child sex trafficking in Cambodia and throughout the world. If you saw the new movie Nefarious – Merchant of Souls, you will undoubtedly remember Don as he discussed the journeys of 5 brave heroes who had to face Captain Michael Pepe at the trial after they were brutally raped and abused regularly by this ex-marine.  I aspire to walk out my faith like Don Brewster to help those in need!!

“…on this rock I will build my church, and all the powers of Hell will not conquer it.”  [Matthew 16:18]

TOP7 Takeaways Here are Steve’s takeaways of what Jesus placed on my heart through listening to Don Brewster.

  1. Not called – You are not called to reaching out to the lost and broken hearted. Jesus commands you!
  2. Sins of Omission –  God expects us to show our faith.  Jesus’ brother James said, “…faith without works is dead.”
  3. 5 Gifts –  There are 5 gifts listed in Hebrews 10 which helped these Cambodian girls face the marine that brutalized them as they sat in court and were victimized further by the legal system.  Gifts are Jesus, Faith, Hope, Love & Each Other. Like the 5 smooth stones used to bring down a giant.
  4. Loving your enemies – Don shared an incredible story where their ministry had a gym that was open free to the traffickers and pimps. One of the regulars quit showing up because he had raped his sister.  AIM pursued him and told him it was God’s gym and not theirs and they kept praying & contending for him. Eventually he gave his life to Jesus. With the fact that traffickers can make equivalent of over $500,000 to $1M USD per month this is astounding.
  5. Persecuted Life – Everyone who wants to live a Godly life in Jesus will be persecuted including our money.  It will be ok because if you believe the Bible there is joy in suffering when you really follow.
  6. Joy in Suffering – it is way better when you know you are walking in the will of God under His wing.
  7. Where do you Stand? – Every day we declare with whom we stand. With our money, with our time. Are we bold and courageous like these?

Therefore, brothers and sisters, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body,  and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart and with the full assurance that faith bring… let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds.. .and all the more as you see the Day approaching. [Hebrews 10]

Prayer:  “Lord, you are the great judge of not only the wicked but your own people for even sins of omission.  Lord, remind me every day to declare to it is You I serve with my money and time. Guide me with your Spirit Lord to hear your voice and mark my path daily.  Your servant, Steve

If you want to help contact http://www.agapewebsite.org or contact me Steven Anzelc seeklight@ymail.com about ways you can walk out faith.

Follow Him – Abolition Summit Session 4

Steve’s Top7 Takeaways of the Exodus Cry (www.exoduscry.com)  Abolition Summit – Session 4 where Kirk Bennett spoke about listening to God and the Isaiah 61 call to reach out to those in need.

[Book of Isaiah, Chapter 61]

 “The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me, because the LORD has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion— to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of His splendor.”

TOP7 Takeaways   I enjoyed listening to Kirk Bennett and here are a few of the notes and takeaways that I got from the abolition summit session with Kirk.

Follow Him – Session 4:

1 Walk the Walk – We have to do more than we say.   Kirk said, “If we pray but don’t do, that is hypocrisy; but if we do without praying, we don’t do what He is doing”

2 Justice – “Justice is not an abstract noun. Justice is a Man [Jesus]”. Also a big takeaway from some of his stories and words were that justice should be joyful.  Jesus has joy in freeing his people. Kirk told some amazing stories of freedom in Africa because bold women were acting for Justice not in their own strength but by being connected in the Spirit. This protected them greatly also.

3 Jesus not just physical freedom – In the Bible it says the reason that Jesus releases the prisoners is so “they may worship Him.”

4 Small Prophecy – God gives us small words and prophecy and not the whole thing because we would try to do things without him. It is too much for this blog post but new testament prophets vs old testament is quite different. All are to ask for gifts of prophecy in the new testament and in the end times, he will pour out his spirit on all flesh, including dreams and visions.

5 No Prayers too Small – Even what seems feeble and small to us, God loves and listens to and honors.  Kirk told a wild story about a small house of prayer in Portland OR that was in the same building with an adjacent wall to a strip club.  Long story short, the strip club went out of business and a secret tunnel and enclosed room was discovered in the nightclub.  The landlord ended up allowing the house of prayer to take over the whole building without debt and gave them sound equipment.  They have now shown the Exodus Cry Nefarious film on the wall where they took down the strip poles.

6  Why am I blogging 🙂 – We are so busy trying to organize things and do them and then God to bless them. He may bless some of them because they are what He is doing anyway but most He wont bless.  He wants us to spend time with Him.  He wants us and He will give us the jobs to do.If something works it is from him, if it doesn’t it wasn’t Him. Makes me wonder why I am blogging at 2 am LOL. It may be better spent just spending time alone with Him.

7 Follow Him no matter what – In Matthew 4:18-19 His justice movement came when He came to earth.  He said Follow me.  The new disciples didn’t ask where he is going as far as we know.  They just quit their jobs.  We are trying to organize our spiritual life.  It doesn’t work. He messes up your plans. You think its Satan but its Jesus.  God loves us too much.

Kirk said, “You get your voice in the wilderness.  Amen we should go to a conference. No. God is saying Amen you need to go to the wilderness. God is taking us back to our roots. Follow Me. Follow me.”

Are you ready to walk into the wilderness to better hear from God?  Not a bad idea.  I may just do that…:)

LORD, Thank you for all your blessings in my life.  Help me to better hear from You and to pay attention to those words, visions and dreams you give me so that I may do YOUR WILL & not mine.  Help me to take the wilderness steps I need to do to hear your voice more clearly through all the static of the secular world that weighs me down  Let me follow you wherever you go, let me walk in the Isaiah 61 anointing to preach the good news and do acts of justice to your splendor.  Your servant, Steve

If you wish to help with human trafficking through Jesus, contact me at seeklight@ymail.com