Call and Assignment

CALL

I was called by God out of the marketplace to seek the mysteries and truth of Jesus like a pearl merchant who upon finding a single pearl of great value joyfully gives all to have it. To position my family in prayer, fasting and worship that we may hear His voice and then walk out in obedience what he lays on our hearts.  Strive for the first commandment of loving God with all we have, enjoy His presence and allow His glory to overflow to others through love, kindness, acts of justice, healing and deliverance.

CURRENT ASSIGNMENT

To partner with the Lord of the Harvest in this critical hour of history to link marketplace believers in shooting out messengers of light, burning and shining lamps, into the earth. To crosslink intercessory missionaries and agencies to catapult their ability to effectively share the unconditional love, mercy, grace and truth of Jesus and prepare the earth for His coming return.

God has called me on a journey to Karnataka India to seek Him in that place, to love Him by loving and serving His people, praying for them and to be obedient to Holy Spirit as He leads.  Praying for opportunities and divine appointments to love and get to know the Saraswat Brahmin caste of Hindi people and the Dai Muslims of India for which there are no known believers that Yeshua is Messiah.

God has also laid on my heart numerous business projects to expand the kingdom and to partner with those building houses of prayer and churches in Asia and the Middle East and those willing to walk out love and acts of justice in this critical hour for women, men and children abused in human trafficking

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Weak Men

God is amazing how He uses broken men to do His will. This gives me hope as I try to follow His will for my life. 

Many of us know the broken and weak men He called to be His disciples and King David broke 5 of the 10 commandments in following his fleshly lust for Bathsheba.

I am reading the book of Judges which tells history of 13 of the 15 people God used to lead His people for aperiod of 350 years when there was no king.

Barak was not a manly warrior and disobedient to God.

Gideon kept testing and questioning God and made a gold ephod that ensnared israel as it became an idol.

Jephthah the son of a prostitute I get saddened and sickened when He made a horrible vow to God which resulted in him sacrificing his daughter he ran out with joy to greet him when he came home from battle. 😦

Sampson was physically strong but weak in moral character. His first marriage didn’t last…he slept with prostitutes and had a mistress.  God finally became his eyes where he had to rely on God in bondage and God used him in the last 5 minutes of his life mightily.

Lord, even when we consecrate ourselves to live holy and not like the world you know that on this side of eternity we are broken vessels and broken depraved men but thank you that you keep us spinning on the potters wheel refining us and that we can know that your willwhich is so important can still be accomplished through us.   Lord give me strength to walk out your call on my life despite my constant failings. Your bondslave Steven

Stolen moments

STOLEN MOMENTS

In high school, I used to run with a popular group of teens. One of our friends and his Dad were on a political campaign to keep Dayton from annexing Huber Heights  and so we started stealing Dayton Ohio metal signs and poles and blinking yellow construction barrels and lights.   We did it in the dark of night and I felt like it was okay because my friends Dad approved so I wrongly programmed my brain that there is righteous stealing.  One thing led to another and before you know it, we were breaking into a classroom and we stole the answer key to a math test. I remember my heart beating when the teacher caught me in her room and I claimed it was unlocked when actually we crawled in through the window.  She was so disappointed in me and it pierced my heart as I was disappointed in myself too.  I lied to her and that hurt too.

By college, I was running with some old buddies and some new and we were stealing keys from teachers’ desks and running through the buildings at night taking things.   I know now there was no real moral difference in whether the item you steal is big or small but that was my moral code I lived by.  I stole letterhead from the Dean’s Office so I could write official looking letters to friends to make them go to an appointment that didn’t exist because it was hilarious LOL and I took other things. We even broke into an observatory to check out the glory of the galaxies around us and broke onto a roof of a 32 story building walking on the edge of death staring at the small lighted cars of Cincinnati below us.

A guy I knew was a bit of a wild scientist used to take much more valuable things.  He took a square wave generator from a lab and then he took a 12 yr old girls’ skull from an anthropology lab.   For much of my life, stealing was one of those subtle sins in my life.  I took the small trinkets from work or electrical supplies or compressed air fittings etc.  It seemed inconsequential but in God’s eye, some day I will have to give an account. 

SALT & LIGHT

He eventually stole my heart because of the salt and light of others  and now I steal no more.  Herb was a friend that we all knew was a Christian but he liked hanging with us and he didn’t hassle us much and took us fairly unconditionally so we liked having him around.  Soon he was taking some things too on our adventures like classroom signs to hang in his dorm.   In one of his weak moments, he came down on my friend about stealing valuable things and in classic agnostic response, I shot back at the Christians’ juggler vein, calling him out as a hypocrite as I said ‘your signs are the same as my friends expensive lab equipment’.   I really didn’t believe that at the time because I followed Herb’s code of small things.   We know Jesus despised the religious leaders and ‘hypocrite’ was His term for them so that was good enough for me to lay into him with to deflect the light he was shining on my sin.

 Well what transpired next was salt and light to my dark heart.  Herb didn’t say anything. Instead, he went back at 2 am in the morning and put the signs back up on the walls of the University.   And worse, he wouldn’t even hang out with us anymore.  I was wounded inside but it was exactly what I needed as I knew that Herb did the honorable and right thing.  And I can imagine he apologized to God and pressed the reset button but I didn’t really know how Christians worked then or what it meant but I what I did know was that Herb was no longer the image of a hypocrite in my mind but instead someone that walked the walk.    That day, I imagined this is what Jesus looked like.  He didn’t look like the world but he was separate from the world and he spoke truth not by just what he said but more by what he did.

[Bible, Book of Matthew Chp 5:13-16]  You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men.“You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. 15Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.

Lord,  Thank you for people like Herb that let your light shine before men at the cost of mocking and loss of friendship.  They will not know how many people they lead to you by doing these things.  Bless Herb and others like him for their faith to follow You through the narrow gate of life.  Your wingman, Steven


 

 

I knew what I was getting into

When I quit my job to follow God full time, it didn’t take long for the worry and anxiety to set in.  You see, I quit a really good job from a world perspective. I was managing teams of engineers architects and construction for the Joint Strike Fighter F-35 jet facilities in Dallas Ft Worth and the work was steady, fun most of the time, the people were awesome and the pay was good.
But for my last 3 days of cleaning out my office and handing over my duties to others, I went to bed wondering did I do the right thing. But for those 3 days God did something weird to reassure me that I was called and that everything was going to be all right.  When I woke up I was singing a song in my head that I couldn’t quite place.
…everything is in my hands.
It’s going to be alright.
It’s going to be Okay
I searched the internet as I had the tune in my head and some of the words but to no avail.  On the last day of work, I was driving from Kansas City to Lees Summit my home and was having an internal  discussion with God about going to the prayer room but I told Him I had too much to do and was going to head home. Before you knew it, I had apparently gone south on I-71 instead of going east on I-470 like every other day in my life.
It seemed like a pretty good sign that God wanted me in the prayer room right then.  🙂 What happened next has forever changed me to be really in tune to his voice.  I went in to the prayer room (IHOP.org)  and
Misty Edwards was playing the song that HE kept waking me to.
After that time for the whole first track of the internship at IHOP, I felt a lot of peace in the decision and knew that He was with me in this decision.  Even wilder, is that as we had a short break between Track I and II, I started questioning whether I should be in Track II or working or going into the wilderness and within moments of telling my friend Keith I wasn’t sure I should still be here at IHOP, the same song came on in the background and once again, I am all in again because I know I am listening again.
I also just thought about the fact that he did this over a 3 day period, like burying me from the past ways and awakening to the new things HE has for me.  Thank you Lord for speaking to me and choosing me even in my weakness and sin. Your servant, Steven
Song by MISTY EDWARDS – I knew what I was getting into oracle
I knew what I was getting into when called you.
I knew what I was getting into when I said your name, but I said it just the same.
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into.I knew what I was getting into and I still chose you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into when I said your name, but I said it just the same.
I knew what I was getting into.

And I am not shocked by your weakness.
And I am not shocked even by your sin.
And I am not shocked by your brokenness.

I knew what I was getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still chose you.

Cuz only I can see the end from the beginning.
And only I can see where this is going.
And only I can see the end from the beginning.
And I see in you the seeds of love.
And I see in you strength when all you see is your failure and all you feel is ashamed.
I can see deeper than that.
I know you better than that.

I knew what I was getting into when called you.
I knew what I was getting into when I said your name.
I said it just the same.
I knew what getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you.

Your only at the beginning.
You’ve only just begun and I know where you are going
And all you can see in the moment is that your hurting.
And all you can see in the moment is that your aching.

I knew what I was getting into when I called you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still want you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you.
I knew what I was getting into when I called you.

Just don’t give up.
And don’t give in.
If you don’t quit. You win, you win.

Just don’t give up.
And don’t give in.
If you don’t quit. You win, you win.

Everything is in my hands.
It’s going to be alright.
Everything is in my hands.
It’s going to be alright.
It’s going to be okay.
Everything is in my hands.
It’s going to be alright.
It’s going to be Okay.
And you don’t have to pretend to be something or someone your not.
Cuz I know you better than that, even better, even better than that.
Listen my Beloved.

I knew what I was getting into when I called you.
I knew what I was getting into when I said your name.
I said it just the same.
I knew what I was getting into and I still like you.
I knew what I was getting into and I still chose you.

Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/misty_edwards/i_knew_what_i_was_getting_into_spontaneous_oracle.html